Tomorrow morning I have my last medical test in the quest to solve my stomach pain attacks. I say it's my last test because I am choosing for it to be my last test. I am choosing to be DONE. I really have exhausted my options and done more tests than I ever thought could be done on a person's stomach and I'm ready to just be through with going to see doctors, and getting constantly poked and examined like a lab rat.
Tomorrow's test is a pretty simple one and for that I am thankful. It's a Barium Swallow (aka small bowel test) and basically consists of drinking a milkshake-like substance and taking a long series of xrays. They are focusing on my small bowel because so far it has been the only thing in all of my tests that is possibly slightly abnormal in size/shape, which could mean absolutely nothing and it's a total long shot that it has anything to do with my pain, but like I said we have exhausted all our options.
Honestly, I am 100% prepared for them to not find anything and am seeing tomorrow as more of the close to this crazy medical chapter of my life. I had another stomach pain attack early Sunday morning and while it was just as bad as usual (sharp stabbing pain off the charts), I have totally learned how to handle the pain. I barely even cried during it and that is a HUGE improvement to the exorcist-style dramas that used to happen.
For some reason the pain just doesn't seem to affect me mentally anymore and I am able to push through it, pick myself up, and move on as if nothing happened. I realized how much it has stopped affecting me because I didn't even tell anyone that it happened; I literally just went about my day completely normal and totally happy.
So yes, tomorrow when the test is over and they tell me that everything looks healthy (because it always does) I am choosing to be done and *fingers crossed* stay away from the doctors office for awhile. I have too much awesome stuff to be excited about in life and am sick of wasting my time at pointless doctors appointments.
{Exhale} Okay, vent over. Time to go watch American Idol :)
Blog Timeline
Here's a little guide to how my life has evolved since this blog first started back in 2008. Looking back now, I've gone through some very distinct and significant chapters. The archives at the bottom follow along accordingly :)
December 2008-July 2010:
Graduating from college, experiencing life as newlyweds, moving to the far-away land of Mississippi, enduring the hectic lifestyle of Air Force pilot training, discovering my passion for web design, and transitioning into life as a real "grown-up".
August 2010- December 2010:
Moving back in with my parents in California while Jake was away at training in Oklahoma, living in a complete state of "limbo", growing my newly launched web design business, and loving life back on the best coast - oops! - I mean west coast ;)
January 2011- March 2012:
Discovering what it's like to have life-altering medical issues, struggling through tragic loss, physical pain, emotional pain, never-ending doctor's appointments and medical tests, all while trying to start our new life at Travis AFB... Learning to trust God even in the darkest times and constantly praying for healing.
April 2012- Present Day:
Experiencing healing from my physical pain, enjoying a career that I absolutely love, making the most wonderful friends here at Travis, and striving to live every single day to the FULLEST. God is so good! John 10:10 - Read it :)
December 2008-July 2010:
Graduating from college, experiencing life as newlyweds, moving to the far-away land of Mississippi, enduring the hectic lifestyle of Air Force pilot training, discovering my passion for web design, and transitioning into life as a real "grown-up".
August 2010- December 2010:
Moving back in with my parents in California while Jake was away at training in Oklahoma, living in a complete state of "limbo", growing my newly launched web design business, and loving life back on the best coast - oops! - I mean west coast ;)
January 2011- March 2012:
Discovering what it's like to have life-altering medical issues, struggling through tragic loss, physical pain, emotional pain, never-ending doctor's appointments and medical tests, all while trying to start our new life at Travis AFB... Learning to trust God even in the darkest times and constantly praying for healing.
April 2012- Present Day:
Experiencing healing from my physical pain, enjoying a career that I absolutely love, making the most wonderful friends here at Travis, and striving to live every single day to the FULLEST. God is so good! John 10:10 - Read it :)
2 comments:
I am so very sorry Lindsay for all the pain you go through all the time. I know you have gone through every test imaginable but I have to ask have they done a biobsy to see if you have celiac disease?? Trust me, I had every test possible and the one you have coming up I had as well at UC Davis only for them not to find anything and it was not until I came back here and had a biobsi and they finally found I have celiac disease. I don't want you to have that but sometimes it is almost better knowing or atleast weighing out that option too.
Yes I've had 2 scopes done and on the 2nd they tested for celiac and I don't have it. Thanks for checking though!!
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